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here i am...once again...im torn into pieces [
Nov 10 2006
]

underthissmile_
[ mood | stressed ]

hey ladies, wow its been forever, i was getting better...but i guess there no such thing as getting better is there...ull always have thoes crazy thoughts in the back of your mind...well, im guessing there are a buncha new ppl on here so HEY:) well here i am fucking up my life again just when it starts to get good...i have the most amazing bf in the world, i live in a great place, im getting so independant and its like a freaking addiction. i start to gain weight and freak out, its like it cant ever get past a certain point...and i know you know what i mean...the worst part is that i love it, and i want it, but on the other hand i just want to be normal again you know, but i guess really i wasnt. this is deep i know but its just this is the only place i can say how i feel and ppl understand. Im so scared right now cuz i know i love love loosing weight and its always like i wonder just how much i can get, and i can see my bf starting to get worried and all i want to do is cry and tell him but its something that you cant say really unless you want to change, and thats just it, i dont...well ladies let me tell you, i am back. and im so happy to be back and able to share everything and hear all your stories about this. soooo yahhh hope your all doing well, good to be back:) xoxo

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I know it's been forever [
Aug 1 2006
]

2bliljill
[ mood | exhausted ]

HELLO ALL OF MY LOVELY LADIES!!! YES, IT'S BEEN FOREVER I KNOW. SO MUCH HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH ME THESE PAST FEW MONTHS. I WAS IN SCHOOL IN LITTLE ROCK AND I GOT MARRIED IN MAY IN LAS VEGAS. BESIDES ALL THAT, I GOT FAT IN THE PROCESS OF THINGS. BUT I AM BACK ON TRACK NOW. I JUST GOT DONE WITH A GREAT WORK OUT AND RIGHT NOW I AM EXACTLY TEN POUNDS AWAY FROM MY GOAL WEIGHT. AM SOOOOO HAPPY!!!! I HAVE BEEN BUSTING MY ASS FOR THIS. MY NEW HUBBY KNOWS EVERYTHING THAT "I AM ABOUT" SO HE DOESN'T LOOK DOWN ON ME. HE WORRIES, BUT HE KNOWS ITS SOMETHING I HAVE STRUGGLED WITH FOR YEARS. WELL, I HATE TO RUN BUT I HAVE TO GET A SHOWER BEFORE CLASS. I LOVE YOU ALL!!! JILL

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Feb 28 2006
]

dream_of_ana
10 Ways to Help Your Body Detoxify
After a detoxification program, you can cleanse your body daily through diet, supplements and lifestyle practices.

1. Eat plenty of fiber, including brown rice and organically-grown fresh fruits and vegetables. Beets, radishes, artichokes, cabbage, broccoli, spirulina, chlorella, and seaweed are excellent detoxifying foods.

2. Cleanse and protect the liver by taking herbs such as dandelion root, burdock and milk thistle, and drinking green tea.

3. Take vitamin C, which helps the body produce glutathione, a liver compound that drives away toxins.

4. Drink at least 2 quarts of water daily.

5. Breathe deeply to allow oxygen to circulate more completely through your system.

6. Transform stress by emphasizing positive emotions.

7. Practice hydrotherapy by taking a very hot shower for five minutes, allowing the water to run on your back. Follow with cold water for 30 seconds. Do this three times, and then get into bed for 30 minutes.

8. Sweat in a sauna so your body can eliminate wastes through perspiration.

9. Dry-brush your skin to remove toxins through your pores. Special brushes are available at natural products stores.

Finally, 10. What is the most important way to detoxify? "Exercise," says Bennett. "Yoga or jump-roping are good. One hour every day."
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Feb 23 2006
]

dream_of_ana
hi guys...
hope everyone is good. it has been so hard for me to say no to food lately..no idea why.. i feel fat ugly fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat......having a bad day.....there is some strawberry cake in the kitchen.....it smells soo good........fuck i will NOT EAT. my god it was never this hard. fuck. well talk to u laters.

love ronnie
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Feb 21 2006
]

dream_of_ana
It’s funny how i got off track so easily. I apologize for not being dedicated. And NOW AM FATTER THEN EVER....i hate myself right now. I really thought that i was free, i know sounds so hypercritical, but food was making me happy. I thought i was eating good, but shit all i ate was FAST FOOD. what was wrong with me. Well guys i hope everyone comes back and posts. i would really appreciate everyone back. and again sorry. LOVE YOU ALL.

Well anyways i will email everyone in a while. Jill and i have been bad. Shame on us. Jill has soo much to tell. I need to talk to her...well i kinda talk to her everyday. Well my girlies what do you say for community fast... are we back to the community weekly plan i think so. I feel my arms soo big right now, being full is soo gross, no one should feel this ugly...ehh... i will not put my stats let me lose about 15 ibs before i do....i feel ashame......

I AM FAT
STUPID IF I EAT
SKINNY IS PERFECT.


love you ALL
-ronnie
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.:B.:.A.:.C.:.K:. [
Jan 6 2006
]

underthissmile_
[ mood | determined ]

hey ladies
im back finally! heres my latest stats
5'7
cw 119
highest 130 - ohhhword i kno...i kno
lw 110
ive been through some scary stuff in the past few months and am soo careful now, my family knows everything but its not guna stop me, are you kidding, i hate gaining weight, i have to pretend all the time now, they are so watchful of my every move, its okay tho cuz ill find ways, its so brutal rite now im going into modeling agensies on monday and my moms like, you have to eat more if your working out, i made you dinner, blah blah, nowayman! ive been on an energy drink diet, and am addicted to the gym...its the worst and best thing at the same time, i cant stand gaining weight its so sick for me, i want to be 110 again i was so proud of myself! i kno i can do it...i have to, but im so glad to be back ladies i hope your all doing amazing! xoxo

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Nov 18 2005
]

sweetabbyg
what happened to the community that i loved? why doesn't anyone post anymore?
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Nov 17 2005
]

thinpurity
so this time last year, i was ana, then turned to mia-messed my life up. and a year later after therapy iv put back all the weight ive lost, and cant stop eating, but heres the thingi hate it. so unhappy. its just hard to get back into restriction. my head is in a fight with hunger.
so i need you to support me, do fasts with me etc-an buddy?! i need to start off gently, any tips would be really appreciated.
stats
5'4
hw- 130
lw- 105
cw- 125 or more. god im soo fucking fat
ltg- 100 for xmas.
oh god i hate been this fat. but why is it when u hate something about yourself people try to kepe it that way? everyone thinks i look great-yeh, prob cos i weight more than them!
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Nov 16 2005
]

sweetabbyg
it has been such a long time since i last visited this site and i am returning to you as failure. i have been stuck at 114 for months and i am so tired of being fat. i hate myself and i know that i can't enjoy life as a fat slob and so i am ready to work like never before. i decided to give myself a christmas present of weighing 108. do you think that i can loose 6 pounds before december 25?
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Oct 21 2005
]

dream_of_ana
hi my girls.
BE BRAVE.

love you all. i am in such a bad mood right now. am getting fatter by the min. I ATE A HUGE TACO...GROSS................AND I DONT HAVE THE BALLS TO VOMIT. ME SCARED TO VOMIT. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS. SCARED. I HATE SCHOOL BECAUSE I CANT DONT ANYTHING IN MY PRIVACY
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BACK AGAIN [
Oct 12 2005
]

wanttobewasted
I havent posted in over 5 months. So I guess I am kind of new again. My name is Corinne and I am 22 years old. I have had issues with eating basically my whole life. I was mia for about 3 years and that stopped about half a year ago. But everything has started up again. So I am back and I am happy with it because I really dont think there is anything else i want more than to be thin.
HW: 159
CW:134
5'6''
Short Term Goal: 120
Long Term Goal: 100 or below

Hope everyones day is going well, sucky weather over here though!
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Hey Ladies [
Oct 10 2005
]

swabean
[ mood | content ]

Hey everyone. I figured I would stop in and say hi!:-) Haha I took a personal day from classes and feel very relaxed and refreshed-in time for work tonight (5p-1a). I have been a little better lately, although everyone has once again been force feeding me, but its getting better I suppose. I am gonna try to be a vegetarian for a little and see how that goes....hopefully all the greens will be a good way for me to eat to please-everyone that I'm eating and myself that its very much healthy and not bad calorie-wise:-D

Well, I should get going, I have to get to work on some physics. I hope ya'll are doing well!
XOXOXO
Sara

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Yes I am still alive! [
Oct 4 2005
]

swabean
[ mood | pissed off ]

Sorry it has been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long, but after I got back from Peru I had to start classes back up. But lemme fill you in on the details of my life thus far.....I gained 10 pounds in Australia...............yes I know...........I'm still fighting the battle of eating too much..............but now my bf forces food down my throat, even if I say no......I need to figure out a better way to avoid eating. As of now, I am trying to eat just fruits and veggies and it seems to be going well. I have been going to the gym more often, even though I am so busy its retarded-I have 2 jobs now and go to school full time. But yes, have been waking up in the morning to go for a nice 3 mile jog, and I'm also taking a swimming class so I get some more exercise there:-D Did I mention my second job is at a resturant? hahahahaha I get a free meal AND a shift drink (free drink when my shift is over:-D) and lately I have just been getting a salad with no crutons and just vinegar. And in the am blueberries and peaches. I figure the best way to get out of eating a lot is for me to start eating so healthy its crazy and then my tummy is always hungry (as it is and always growling now--I love it)and then it will shrink on me. And I dont care if I get threatened again....I look like a fucking fat pig and I NEED to loose at least 10 pounds and get back to 105. I weighed myself this morning, and I weighed 113:-) Yesterday it was about 115 and the day before that was..............about 117--YUCK! But it is getting easier to decline food offered to me and I am feeling a little better about myself. Sadly (and I know you probably done wanna hear it, but I'm gonna tell you anyways because I want to:-p) my period is starting to get back on track by slowly moving to the end of the month-where it was before I took the loverly leap into the ed.....then last year it was coming at the beginning and coming late a lot (*sigh* I miss it), and now it is in the middle of the month, towards the end. Soon to be changed thats for sure!:-D Well, I gotta boogie, I have a physics lab report to write up, then I have to shower and leave for work....I will post my pics from Australia and Peru soon! Stay strong ladies! Love you all!

Sara

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Sep 30 2005
]

dream_of_ana
[ mood | crazy ]

Halloween design

 

I LOVE OCTOBER!!

 HI EVERYONE.

STAY SKINNY. LOVE YOU ALL. STAY STRONG AND DONT EAT TODAY.............TRUST ULL FEEL A WHOLE LOT BETTER

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Sep 22 2005
]

pale4ana
hey everyone, its been literally months, im sorry, no excuses, i just haven't found the time.
I'm really happy cause I've lost 5 lbs in the last few days and its the first real lot os weight ive lost in a while. ive had only 2 rolls(100cals each), grapes (50cals), and a hot chocolate each day. had a bit more yesterday but each day i have thrown up as well, which is of course truly revolvting, disgusting, dirty and fat but its all aiming for the same goal so right now i dont give a fuck. I want to lose about another 10lbs in the next couple of weeks to really be happy and see where to go from there. life has been tres strange recently but i have spent every waking minute reading, at school or doing a crossword of some sort for my great plans to get clever. applying to uni next month and it is fucking me up so bad, i am absolutely terrifyed of what my life will be like such a huge change but so looking forward to the freedom, you wouldn't believe, not that i dont get it now, i dont have to eat at home and rarely do, dad knows i've "had issues" before but i think he is denial, doesn't want to admit there is something wrong with me. so its all ok at the minute. I got the results of a biology test back today and got 91%, highest in class and God I was so happy, my grades slipped really badly last year and its like i start restricting like never before and they go back up, I'm sure its not supposed to work like that.
Also though I have felt really ill recently, have had laxatives too so i guess they dont help, but i've just felt so dizzy and off balance, not quite all there, in a world of mine, pounding headaches, freezing cold,and you know what, I like. I have to admit, I love the feeling that I am getting sick, I am finally getting good at something, starving. yes. anyway this was just a recap, I hope everyone had a good summer. good luck and keep starving or puking or whatever takes your fancy because I don't really care that much for you guys, like i love you and love chatting but if i cared I would want you to get better, but i dont care so i just hope your all happy in what your doing. think very very painfully thin. love u all
kim
xxx
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Sep 16 2005
]

dream_of_ana
[ mood | annoyed ]

glitterline1.GIF (22k)

HI everyone. am at work. doing nothing. theres a cookie right in front of me, AND I REALLY WANT IT. bUT i just saw this FAT FAT WOMEN EAT LIKE 4. fat ASSS. fuck looking at her eating it make me want to vomit. KILL ME.

i HOPE EVERYONE IS OKAY. IF ANYONE WANTS TO TALK im ME ON AOL trueimagestar. i know i havent been working on this website.  sorry you guys. SCHOOL IS KICKING MY ASS.

 

love YOU ALL.

 

-RONNIEglitterline1.GIF (22k)

 

 
 
 

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Sep 4 2005
]

2bliljill
[ mood | groggy ]

HEY THERE MY BEAUTIES!!! HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GREAT HOLIDAY WEEKEND. AND TO THOSE WHO ARE JUST HAVING A NORMAL WEEKEND I HOPE ITS GOING WELL!!! AM SUCH A DORK! :) WELL, TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY HERE!! I HAD A SMALL EAR OF CORN BOILED IN FAT FREE CHICKEN BROTH. IF NONE OF YOU DO THAT WITH YOUR VEGGIES YOU SHOULD TRY IT. IT GIVES THEM A GREAT FLAVOR. DRINKING SOME SLEEPY TIME TEA NOW. GOOD STUFF!!

JUST GOT DONE WATCHING AMITYVILLE 2 FROM LIKE 1982. I WAS BARELY A YEAR OLD WHEN THAT CAME OUT AND I KNOW SOME OF YOU WEREN'T EVEN BORN YET. IT WAS PRETTY GOOD THOUGH. SCARED ME MORE THAN THE REMAKE THAT CAME OUT THIS PAST YEAR. I WAS IN MY APARTMENT ALONE AND BEING THE SCARDY CAT I COULD BARELY TALK MYSELF INTO GETTING OFF THE COUCH TO GO TO THE BATHROOM. I FINALLY MADE IT!!! HEHE!! I AM JUST RAMBLING ON AND ON. MUST BE DELIRIOUS.....NEED SLEEPY!!! NITEY NITE CHICA'S!!! STAY STRONG AND THINK THIN AS ALWAYS!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!! JILLIAN :)

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wishing [
Sep 2 2005
]

2bliljill
[ mood | mellow ]

HEY THERE MY BEAUTIES!!! WELL, I AM FINALLY SET IN MY NEW PLACE. SCHOOL IS HARD AS HELL THIS SEMESTER. 17 CREDIT HOURS. I AM TAKING IMMUNOLOGY, HEMETOLOGY, BIOCHEMISTRY, BODY FLUIDS, MEDICAL TECHNOLOGY, PARISITOLOGY, AND ALL THE LABS THAT GO ALONG. DAMN IT. I FINALLY GOT TO JOIN A GYM HERE TO IN THE NEW PLACE. MY GOAL IS TO BE 15 DOWN BY OCT 15TH. I CAN DO IT. I REALLY WANT TO BUILD THIS COMMUNITY BACK UP AND I KNOW THAT RONNIE AND I HAVE KINDA BEEN MISSING THIS SUMMER. AM SUCH A BAD MODERATOR. SORRY LADIES!!! I HAVE JUST BEEN TRYING TO GET MY SHIT STRAIGHT. IF ANYONE HAS ANY NEW IDEAS FOR THE COMMUNITY JUST LET RONNIE OR ME KNOW. I KNOW WE USED TO DO THE COLOR DAYS AND IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED IN THAT THAN LET US KNOW. OR IF ANYONE HAS SOME NEW IDEAS FOR IMPROVEMENT LET US KNOW. I WILL GET YOU ALL POSTED ON MY NEW STATS SOON. GOTTA GET SOME SLEEP NOW. I HAVE BEEN UP FOR WAY TOO LONG NOW. HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY WEEKEND LADIES!!! STAY STRONG AND THINK THIN!!! LOVE YA, JILLIAN :)

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Aug 26 2005
]

dream_of_ana
[ mood | bored ]

hi everyone.

 

am here at work doing nothing. its about 1:24 and i didnt have lunch. YAY TO ME. well i have been so busy with school. and the funny thing it seems like i cant catch up. this weekend am going to do all my readings so i dont have to worry all week. wish me luck. i hope everyone is doing good. KEEP STRONG. love u all. i better get goin cause my boss is right behind me. oh i have the cutest work space:)

 

xoxo

-ronnie

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britches are bitches [
Aug 24 2005
]
phoenix_alma
[ mood | annoyed ]

the college i'm going to this fall has an equestrian team, and being an active horseback rider, i'm really excited to join it. until i went shopping for britches (those tight riding pants) with my mom. i have a 26" waist, and my mom was absolutely horrified about my size. she was yelling at me to eat and get my head on straight in the store and everyone was looking at me and it was so mortifying. i wish she would just leave me alone. she doesn't even understand what i'm going through. she thinks that my refusal to eat is all about low self-esteem, but she doesn't realize that it's not actually about the food. it's about the sense of control. does anyone else ever feel repeatedly misunderstood about this? anyways, i'm down to 122. only two more pounds to go. :)

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